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Helter Skelter, man

Want to do some community service?  Besides not eating meat, recycling, and volunteering, you can also give a lonely old sociopath some company :
Charles Manson, B-33920
4A 3R 14L
P. O. Box 3476
Corcoran, CA 932122-34

He needs friends too haha.  But, no pictures, fags, books, er magazines.  Clearly, he is not mentally stable enough to deal with colourful images er tobacco. 

I think I'm going to write some random, stupid shit to him using a different address XB

Real update soon.  Comic Con, wild sweet, freaky, nasty sexcapades with my older gent, schule, life, future photo shoots, new hair, & how I am still struggling to find a fucking job >/

I can't wait to go to Isaac's tonight :3

peace & muffins~

planet-x

Definitely a good night.

Writers such as me tr to elaborate, but I ave catching up to do, & may do tomorrow before acitivies.

Good night.  Good sister.  Good vibesssss ~*diggin~*

Sparkle in some sludge

Erinn (my sister): That's my leg you farted on
Me: Oh, that's cool.  Sayin' as how you farted on my face the other day.
Erinn: It wasn't on your face.

Lols ♥  I love my sister.  It was like the only highlight to my day; her being in my room watching reruns of 90s sitcoms with me for a few hours.  Making fun of each other, laughing so hard we cry, making stupid faces, talking about boys, cats, & the piercing I want that she objects to.  Not fighting.  It was really nice n_n  I don't think I can ever settle for McDonalds milkshakes again, though.  Bleh.  Hydrogenated soybean oil & syrup flavouring is definitely not the same thing as real fucking milk & cream.  But, the thought counts ;p

I haven't had a full cigarette since like, 330 er 4.  I am so broke I could cry, but I'll make due.  I wish I at least had money for the rest of the presents I have to buy >__<  Gay.  This holiday, man.  This holiday.  At least give our city a real wonderland!!  Ah well.  Isaac...well, I didn't mention that before, so I'll leave it at that.  Besides me having no fucking money or cigarettes & that prolonged exposure to the pink laptop has made my back & neck unhappy, I am not in too bad a mood :D  So, yea.  Fuck you.  ♥

Photo Meme-#2 (a year ago)







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1. a photo from your facebook profile
2. a photo of yourself a year ago
3. a photo that makes you happy
4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday
5. a photo of you
6. a photo that makes you laugh
7. a photo of someone you love
8. a photo of your favourite band/musician
9. a photo of your family
10. a photo of you as a baby
11. a photo of your favourite film(s)
12. a photo of you
13. a photo of your best friend(s)
14. a photo of one of your favourite family members
15. a photo of you and someone you love
16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
17. a drunk photo of you
18. a photo of one of your classes
19. a photo of you on a school trip
20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
21. a photo of you standing up
22. a photo of your town
23. a photo of your friend as a baby
24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
25. a photo of a night you loved
26. a photo of your favourite weekend
27. a photo of last summer
28. a photo of what you ate today
29. a photo of someone you find attractive
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Bitches be hatin' (er a photo meme!)






Kelda Chigurh, brothas & bitches.  Best recognize now.  Soon, you won't even be able to forget :p

Lols.  Talking to Sarah er my sister often ends up being done in some gangsta/ghetto/cholla/hustla' slang.  *inspired post*  Preach.
This should be fun.  Hoooochie, time to chill for another hour before my last class of the day begins.  *dies*
I need myself a Benjamin pile & some shit right about now z_z





1. a photo from your facebook profile
2. a photo of yourself a year ago
3. a photo that makes you happy
4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday
5. a photo of you
6. a photo that makes you laugh
7. a photo of someone you love
8. a photo of your favourite band/musician
9. a photo of your family
10. a photo of you as a baby
11. a photo of your favourite film(s)
12. a photo of you
13. a photo of your best friend(s)
14. a photo of one of your favourite family members
15. a photo of you and someone you love
16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
17. a drunk photo of you
18. a photo of one of your classes
19. a photo of you on a school trip
20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
21. a photo of you standing up
22. a photo of your town
23. a photo of your friend as a baby
24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
25. a photo of a night you loved
26. a photo of your favourite weekend
27. a photo of last summer
28. a photo of what you ate today
29. a photo of someone you find attractive
30. a photo of you when you were happy

where's my muffin at?

I'll post more when I feel more inclined to do so. 

I ave decided to become a vegetarian, && it has almost been two weeks since I ate meat.  && I cheeseburgers were, like, my favourite food, so I deserve some props :p  I love animals ♥  It's just not fair that they are so delicious & are tortured & killed because of it.


Panic attacks/panic disorder is kind of trying to take over my life right now, but I almost feel the ease to say this will be the first night in almost a week I ave felt completely at ease.  Sleeping at the Albuquerque haus for the first time.  Bed still in Bernalillo, but we ave nice easy chairs here, & I can finally cuddle with my Molly kitty. ♥♥

Other things have been good.  People & boys ave been stupid.  I'm so tired of always being the good friend.  If it's not one person being self-centered with their lives & problems, it's another.

But, I am kind of good right now.  Missed class due to anxiety, but let my teacher know what was up.  Erinn & I had a sister day.  Went to the mall for a bit so she could get some Fall clothes (got kind of anxious, but not too bad).  && then we watched Case 39 which, omg, we ave never screamed so much in a theatre before!  We were laughing & screaming at the same time.  I was worried because of my state of mind, but I love horror, & I need to ease back into it, even though good ol' mum advises against it :p  Lol.  I love my mum.  It's amazing how good we are compared to just a couple of years ago when we both disliked each other so much & she wanted me gone so bad.  She stayed on the phone with me for over 20 minutes yesterday when I realized why I was feeling like that.  ♥♥

Anyway, then we came home & hung out on our laptops, I took Sarah back to Bernalillo from CNM, & then came back here.  Ben, Erinn, & I went to Flying Star (like all the Central "cool kids" do haha XD  stupid fucking insecure losers!) & now all three of us are chilling on our own laptops in Ben's room.  && I feel mostly good.  Hope this lasts.  I'm afraid to jump to positive or negative conclusions, but I tend to be pretty positive. 

Anyway, yea...stupid boys lol.

Gut nacht!  Suli, this post was for you :P  ♥♥
*copy & edit original journal & go!*
This month better get better!  Granted, it has only been my third week here (Monday) in Denver, but it feels like there's a obstacle obstructing the path of everything I have been pursuing.  I do over exaggerate-or freak too quickly-maybe-but, I truly never lose complete sight of hope.  Ever.  I'm a positive muffin, but it's so hard when it feels like (already) little is going how it should.  Part my luck, part testing of some higher power's?  Idk, but it's an all too often recurring cycle.  The wheels of motion are slowing down-creaking in need of oil.  I guess that's all up to me to work harder & make that happen.  My first attempt to go clubbing ever Saturday night (with Cat) was a bust when I got in yet another accident.  The risk of getting taken off mum's insurance runs high, but as soon as I can finally use Aaron's phone during hours, I am finally filing a claim.  I so look forward to having a job & going to schule, but there's the lingering fear of reoccurring let down in the back of my mind that I just can't face.  Tomorrow I continue to be an early muffin & go look for jobs & maybe see my cousin Joylynn's new pup (hopefully sans crazy, PTSD-ridden bf) while I wait for the papers from mum so I can finally get this messy tuition deal out of the way.  I finally had my second big cry yesterday talking to mum & have sniffed & such today.  I've teared up & wanted to cry, but my body just wouldn't let me till now, I don't think.  Tomorrow is a new day & I'll keep working hard & actually start saving my fucking mum money (>__<)  for the oil (a la' wheels in motion) & really keep working to get everything settled, even though it's hard to deal between two states, especially when you're almost always alone (it shall make me stronger?)  I finished reading The Devil Wears Prada & it was great.  Fuck the movie lol.  I am now making my through The Valley of the Dolls.

So, when I wrote that I felt a lot more down, but I am in a more positive mood tonight, despite the fact that my new phone is already having major issues & I can't get a new one for three days >_<  Major suckage.  & even though I know I am trying hard, this whole me not saving money thing is not cool.  Fast food, gas, & fags add up quick!!  I was so close to becoming only a drinking smoker :{  I hope tomorrow goes well, & that I manage to have service on el phone for more than a half hour.  *shakes fist in general direction*  WHY D:!?!

I helped my brother Aaron make an awesome organic, gluten-free meal of Teriyaki chicken, stir fry & brown rice tonight.  I am so craving major sweets that I have been lacking!!  Bowl of Fruity Pebbles?  Yes, I think so.  Oh-got a super cute hair cut last week & well, it's awesome.  Haven't been able to take good pics lately, but hopefully I will soon.  I want another photoshoot so fucking bad >_< 

I am a mermaid-out of her fishbowl, with bloody, bandaged feet, on the shore between the tank & the mountain. ♥

My next public entry will be one of great optimism & a muffin muffin :D

Post Script: Some Positive

I finally got my two photo shoots in full running order.  I will be about & about in a park next Sunday morning for my photo shoot with amateur photographer Don, where I will be paid $50.  I already have some good, fun, posh, sexy cute ideas I am ready to start practicing & get geared up for.  And then my fetish shoot with Fenton is around the same time on July 3rd where I will be getting paid $50-$75 an hour.  I also have some good ideas with this one & quite a few props & poses that I feel he will really enjoy & love to have in his new fetish photography book. 
Erinn & I meet with the Sedona Ridge apartment people about our two-bedroom tomorrow & I will continue my job search & even suck it up more than I have been in order to finally get a job in check.  I have been trying, but not nearly as hard as I should be.  Ah well.  Quizno's fired me for bullshit reasons & I would like to be making more than minimum wage right now anyway >'<  Summer just distracted me & I hate not being steady.  I hope I will be able to spend some of my photo shoot cash, but am afraid that rent & deposits are going to be very high, indeed.  Why do you need to pay pet rent???  It's so fucking ridiculous!  Fuck you lousy companies who try to make every dollar from you in every way they can!!  *shakes fist*

PS:  PS I Love You is an amazing movie & the soundtrack is great, too.  I hope I can find a great love like that soon.  Sans, ya know, the brain tumour part.  :/